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Dreams
I like to travel inside my dreams
To places I'll most likely never see
And being people I'll most likely never be
But are these dreams truly mine?
Or do they come from society?
What I really want to know
Is what will make me happy
Sometimes I wonder
If I lived all alone
In a house by the sea
And did not have expectations
Would I be happier?
Would I still have dreams
That taunt me?
That taunt me?
I like to pretend I'm famous, in magazines
Walking down the red carpet from a limosine
And preparing an award-recieving speech
But somehow I kinda feel guilty
Am I doing this for myself?
Or is my motive
to impress someone else?
Sometimes I wonder
If I lived all alone
In a house by the sea
And did not have expectations
Would I be happier?
Would I still have dreams
That taunt me?
That taunt me?
You are a failure
Why can't you pick your feet off the ground
And make your dreams happen?
I just don't know where I should even start and I
Need pure motives
Before I can begin
Sometimes I wonder
If I liv
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Literature
The Cave
I tried to love the world
But the world don't love me
I've been rejected
Thrown on the streets
I don't know what's real anymore
Everyone is fake
Hiding behind the mask
Covering their hate
I thought I knew them
But I was so wrong
I tried to love them
But something felt wrong
Please stop!
I'm done with this game!
Why don't you come out of your cave?
You're all hiding in the dark
With your secrets and your lies
When I'm in the light
I've got nothing to hide
I have to tell the truth
None of you are perfect
We are all human
Everyone's defective
With that common truth
You don't have to be ashamed
Just look around
Shine a light in your cave
Please stop!
I'm done with this game!
Why don't you come out of your cave?
You're all hiding in the dark
With your secrets and your lies
When I'm in the light
I've got nothing to hide
It's a sad world
When all it takes to be liked
Is to be popular
Instead of being kind
I'm not saying I'm an angel
But I know what's wrong from right
Guess I'm the only one br
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Literature
Moonlight
My friend came up to me last week and said "Are you going?"
"To what?" I replied. She said "To homecoming?"
I have to be honest here-
No use in lying
Never been asked before
And no use in trying
My heart is ice cold and ice cold it will stay
Until that day, until that day
So I'll spend the night
Hanging in my room
I've got music and it's better too
And I'll dance alone into the night
Under the rays of the moonlight
So my friend was like, "What are you thinking?"
"Please just go to the dance, instead of dreaming."
But that would be no fun
You all have dates
Meanwhile I have no one
Can't run from my fate
My heart is ice cold and ice cold it will stay
Until that day, until that day
So I'll spend the night
Hanging in my room
I've got music and it's better too
And I'll dance alone into the night
Under the rays of the moonlight
But sometimes it gets so lonely
And I just want someone to hold me
But it looks like its not gonna happen this year
I say "Oh well" and shed a tear
So I'll spend the
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You
Da da da, da da da, da da, dadada da da X2
You said you'd call me
But you never called me
You said you wanted me
But you never wanted me
You said you loved me
But you never loved me
But I've recently come to realize
I'm slowly dying inside
Da da da, da da da, da da, dadada da da X2
I found out just last week
What you were doing to me
Sneaking behind my back
But did you honestly
Think that you could hide it
I've got witnesses
At first I didn't want to believe
But now I finally see
And I wish that things didn't end up this way
But it looks like that's how the cards were played
And you know this isn't easy to do
But it looks like I have to break up with you...
Da da da, da da da, da da, dadada da da X2
I must admit
I feel dissappointed
What happened
All the things we had
But its all been lost
In a matter of seconds
And it's all your fault
it's all your fault
And I wish that things didn't end up this way
But it looks like that's how the cards were played
And you know this isn't easy to do
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Literature
Another Year
Wake up in the morning, I'm not sure I'm ready to face the day
Walk out the door, hoping that in the end things will work out okay
I run to the bus stop, thinkin "I hope I'm not late"
But I see my friends, I feel relieved, and we talk about our summers along the way
First period's interesting, see a few demos in chemistry
And in health, I'm lucky that one of my friend sits next to me
But as my Spanish teacher rambles on, I wish to be free
If these are just the first 3 classes, imagine how long the day'll be
I'm wishin for those old days of summer
Where the fan was always on
Played my guitar all day long
But unfortunately, those old days of summer are not here
Looks like I'll just have to wait another year
After lunch, 4th period theatre turns out to be a breeze
Then in English we do another "get to know you" activity
Now downstairs to the dreaded AP U.S. History
And I supposedly didn't turn in a book, so now I gotta pay a fee
I'm wishin for those old days of summer
Where the fan was al
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Literature
Here
I can't lie to myself
because every time you do this
I must admit, I tend to get a bit
Worried inside
As I pace through the hallways
Look out the window constantly
And I'm hoping to see
That old white honda
And hear the garage door opening
Just tell me where'd you go?
I want you to come home
It's getting dark out there
I'm starting to get scared
Just tell me where'd you go?
I want you to come home
It's getting dark out there
And I just want you to be here
It's almost ten
and it's hard to go to bed not knowing
If you're safe or if you're okay
I want you to come back and I want you to stay because I'm
Worried inside
As I pace through the hallways
Look out the window constantly
And I'm hoping to see
That old white honda
And hear the garage door opening
Just tell me where'd you go?
I want you to come home
It's getting dark out there
I'm starting to get scared
Just tell me where'd you go?
I want you to come home
It's getting dark out there
And I just want you to be here
To be here
To be her
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To stay
Sleepovers every weekend
I didnt have to pretend
To be someone else, not myself with you
Staying up late on the phone
I knew that I was never alone
I always had someone to talk to
But one day that changed my life
By your look I knew that something wasnt right
You told me that you had to go
When your gone, its like half of me gone too
And everything I did, I did it with you
And everything about me you knew
But when your best friend moves away
They may be gone but the pain is here to stay
Now its the first day of school
And I am trying to act cool
But Im so lost, Im so lost without you
And at lunch I have to sit by myself
Desperately calling out for your help
But I know youre going through this too
I dont want to be left behind
Slowly pushed to the back of your mind
Oh tell me why you had to go
When your gone, its like half of me gone too
And everything I did, I did it with you
And everything about me you knew
But when your best friend moves away
They may be gone but the pain is here to
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Literature
Hidden Away
hidden away,
inside myself
not knowing it,
but calling for help
and its hard to see
its hard to see you
when all of your lies
have covered the truth
cuz i was never told, i was never told,
that the world could be, it could be so cold
and i walk away, tryin to forget everything,
and its all your fault
i want to know
what happened to me
because before this
i was much more happy
and im so confused
don't know what to do
cuz theres a part of me
thats still in love with you
cuz i was never told, i was never told,
that the world could be, it could be so cold
and i walk away, tryin to forget everything,
and its all your fault
if theres no you, there is no me
and i'm trying to make myself believe
that thats not true
and i wish i was told, i wish i was told
that the world could be, it could be so cold,
and i walk away, things will never be the same,
and its all your fault
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Literature
Not Knowing
You always overreact to everything
And now you ask me why
I don't tell you anything
I keep everything inside
My friends tell me I'm lucky my mom is a therapist
But they don't know the half of it
So tired of her messing in my business
I've just learned to be independent
Just because I don't talk about boys
Doesn't mean I'm gay
It's just like you
to overcomplicate everything
I've always told you I want to be a medical doctor
When in reality, I want to be a singer
But I know
You'd ring my neck
If I ever ever ever told you that
So do you understand why I can't tell you anything
You'd be better off not knowing
I know you can never keep a secret
And now you expect me to say
Everything that's going on in my world
Well I'm sorry
My friends tell me they wish their mom was a therapist
But they don't know the half of it
But they don't know the half of it
So tired of her messing in my business
I've just learned to be independent
Just because I don't talk about boys
Doesn't mean I'm gay
It's just l
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Literature
Hopeless
Will you catch me if I fall?
cuz if I'm not with you, I’m nothing at all
Im still unsure of what to do
do you need me as much as I need you?
will this turn out to be true?
or will I be stuck in my room
thinking of
all we could be
wish you'd see
I need you
have to breathe
in the end
am I just waiting?
You don’t know how much I need you
don't think I can get enough
i'm hopelessly in love
Do you care for me at all?
Or have I been just staring at the wall
Daydreaming about me and you
For these past few days, I hoped and hoped you’d feel the same way too
Will this turn out to be true?
or will I be stuck in my room
thinking of
all we could be
wish you'd see
I need you
have to breathe
in the end
am I just waiting?
You don’t know how much I need you
don't think I can get enough
i'm hopelessly in love
You don’t know what a mark you’ve left on me
You don’t know how your eyes shine beautifully
You don’t know just how lucky you’ll be
If you have me
Til
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So much for you
Now that I look back on it
I can’t believe
That I was that into it
Just wish you’d leave
You think you’re so cool
By ignoring me
I feel like a fool
And its killing me
Do you know how messed up
I’ve become
Staying up late at night
Thinking you were the one
What happened to the guy I thought I knew
He seemed so nice at first but it’s not true
Looks in your eyes and tells you he loves you
Then pushes you down
Stomps your heart to the ground
Do you think I’m stupid
Well that’s not true
I’m pretty sophisticated
No thanks to you
Time and time again
You’ve left me in the cold
Said you wanted to be my friend
This is getting old
What happened to the guy I thought I knew
He seemed so nice at first but it’s not true
Looks in your eyes and tells you he loves you
Then pushes you down
Stomps your heart to the ground
It makes me sick knowin there are people like you in the world, this crazy world
Did you ever think that someday you’d be the every
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Literature
This love ain't good for me
You broke my heart a million and one times
You think I would’ve moved on
I even tried to not think about you
But I failed as the days dragged on by
This love is clouding my head
I think I’ve lost my mind
Its true I think I’m under your spell
yeah this love is making me blind
Need someone to pull me out from under the water
Slap some sense into me
Cuz I’ve been hurt too many times before
this love ain’t good for me
I tried and tried to get your attention
I laughed the loudest, smiled your way
I even put my number in your yearbook
But no response came any day that summer, that summer, that summer yeah
Need someone to pull me out from under the water
Slap some sense into me
Cuz I’ve been hurt too many times before
this love ain’t good for me
I keep on telling myself (telling myself)
This ain’t good for my health (good for my health)
You break me, then build me up, I think I’ve had more than  enough
Still I find myself wanting your lov
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Gone
Holdin on
But I'm losing grip
I'm trying to be strong
But I'm feeling sick
And everything's wrong
The airs been thick
Since you've been gone
Why does it rain
More and more?
And why does the pain
grow and grow?
I'm trying to stay sane
But things are not like before
Since you've been gone
And I'm afraid
That you'll just fade away
Like some forgotten dream
Don't want to forget anything
You said you would
Be with me forever
Even though that was a lie
Don't leave me behind
No matter what you do
I'll be waiting for you
In this pouring rain
Please don't leave me alone
Can't face this storm on my own
The lightning strikes again
I feel so
Empty inside
And life's been slow
Been fighting the tide
Where did you go?
Hard as I try
I'll never know
And I'm afraid
That you'll just fade away
Like some forgotten dream
Don't want to forget anything
You said you would
Be with me forever
Even though that was a lie
Don't leave me behind
No matter what you do
I'll be waiting for you
In this pouring rain
Pleas
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Literature
Push Play
Monday
Forgot my key
Then it's Tuesday
Scraped my knee
Next it's Wednesday
Wish I was free
but it seems the world's hovering over me
And I'm tired of hearing the ring of that phone
Wanna listen to my music
Just leave me alone
Cause when it's the end of a really long day
I grab my ipod and I push play
Thursday
No time for lunch
Then it's Friday
I'm in a rush
Hope that someday
I'll be able to find
A place to relax, to clear my mind
I'm tired of hearing the ring of that phone
Wanna listen to my music
Just leave me alone
Cause when it's the end of a really long day
I grab my ipod and I push play
Ooooooooh
Don't wanna hear it
Ooooooooh
Don't even mention it
Ooooooooh
Wanna lie in my bed
I need some music to clear my head
I'm tired of hearing the ring of that phone
Wanna listen to my music
Just leave me alone
Cause when it's the end of a really long day
I grab my ipod and I push play
So many things goin on in this world
Too many things for this little girl
Sometimes I need a place to escape
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Literature
This Way
2 days and 45 seconds
still crying the way you last saw me
what on earth is happening to me
I think I'm going insane
I-T-S O-V-R
the text message I read in my car
at first i couldn't believe
but the evidence was right there in front on me
then I saw you walking down the street
with a girl who wasn't me
don't you feel the least guilty
it was the same day you broke up with me
what do you, what do you
think you're doing
wish you'd come, wish you'd come
come back to me
but I guess, in the end, it's better off this way
did you know, did you know
how this would affect me?
with a girl, with a girl
the same day you left me?
so sorry, didn't know I was someone in the way
but i guess, in the end, it's better off this way
and now you're trying to ignore me
hiding your half of the story
don't even try to deny
i saw it with my very own eyes
I saw you walking down the street
with a girl who wasn't me
bet you couldn't wait to be free
you thought you had it so easy
what do you, what do you
think you'r
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namtab3 Featured By Owner Jul 15, 2009  Hobbyist Artist
THANKS FOR THE INFO! YEAH IT IS NICE WHEN SOMEONE APPRECIATES SOMETHING & HAS A NICE COMMENT AFTERWARD.
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